| This has been a surreal, extra-miserable but fun afternoon. I hope you get the mix.
Afternoon started when I went to the Glee Club orientation thinG. It was kinda scary because Mr. Sarmiento and the other teacher (forgots the name..) said I had to be commited to the club which I am *ahem ahem* not because you know what I am... Lazy ass and all. Anywooch after that I went down to my classroom to get my stuff. When I got outside I saw Jerik, Tipsy and Jhun. They were like, "We're gonna visit Akmad at the hospital today.. Sama ka ba" and I was like nooooo siree because I pointed out that maybe he wasn't gonna talk to me or maybe he wasn't gonna let me in the room which is soo totally paranoid. So I just walked away with Hazel without a single word.. I felt the world melting melting melting and I was sad because I totally wanted to come. When we arrived at the quad (we were gonna watch the intermission auditions) I saw Bai Janine and Kenneth. Cholo was with us. We sat beside them and chika chika chika. Bai mentioned that she was going to the hospital too and asked me if I wanna come and of course I won't say no to Bai or to any of them (hahahaha y so and I really really wanted to come actually) so I told her that TipsJerikJhun were inviting me to go but I said that I was too shy and she was like I'm going all by myself so what can I do.. I had to come haha. Hazel and Kenneth left na so it was me cholo and bai. We went to get Datu Putih in his classroom and he told us to wait for a few because he wanted to know the results of the dance club thingy (and yea, he got in..).
We talked to Pia for a bit and I said buh-bye to her na so the three of us AmilNinaJanine went to walk papunta sa gate five. They were talking in Maguindanaon as usual so I didn't understand what the heck they were saying but it's all cool.Ü Putih said he was going home na so I boarded Bai's pick-up and we went to the hospital na pero waitwait we decided to buy Akmad some stuffs so we dropped by Dunkin' Donuts to buy half a dozen donuts and flowers at the ground level of DavaoDoc. Janine payed for the donuts, I payed for the flowers. When we were on our way to the entrance we spotted Behn and Floyd so we decided to go with them. Carrying the flowers was really so nakakilang so me and Bai swapped carrying goods. We almost went the wrong way (to the emergency room haha =p) good thing we found the right staircase. As Sharmaine (Apple, his sister) told me, 2nd floor, room 525 (or was it 252? uh oh lol) so we knocked and went in.
When we arrived in the room Bea, GT, Volt, Micah and Jerik were there na. Aggh the expression on his face. We put the donuts and flowers on his bed and I explained that Janine bought the donuts and I bought the flowers. Big deal. After a few minutes more people were coming in na. We had a lot of laughs in that room. His guardians were laughing na rin eh lol because of Floyd, Owie and Jhun. They were using the cheers that we had this senior year and replacing the lyrics so that it would blend in with the welcome back party of Mr. Ampatuan. Hahaha. I was laughing terribly and with Floyd beside me and that laugh of his, I never really stopped! Haha! There was this instance wherein all of them left the room except for me and Akmad. Nice try boys! We never said a word to each other! And I was pretending my tummy was aching so that I can lie down on the bed (the other smaller bed) and when everyone walked back in the room they thought I was crying and Jhun was like (ok so he saw me cry like a lot of times) bakit ninyo pinaiyak si Nina and I woke up instantly and I was like I am NOT crying.
Ok fast forward so all the boys left na and it was me and Bea nalang. I tried to talk to him and I asked him a question he gave me an answer. I offered to help remove his casing since his other hand was connected with the usual hospital tubes and all. I asked him where Jeng was. I asked him if he knew Raiz. I asked him if Apple visited him today. All those, and it's kidna depressing really so there, my dad called and he was like 'i'm here na' so i said bye to his tito, tita, and his 'nanay' (guardian) and nanay was like,"O, hindi ka mag magpapaalam sa isa dito?" with a smiling face and I said bye to him smiling. I should've gave him a hug before we went actually. But the timing wasn't perfect and it was all said and 'done' na so I just went out annoyed with myself for not kissing him on the cheek before I went out. So there.
When I got home I called Bai up at their house and she was making kuwento, her sadness the 'why-can't-i-be-happy' question and all. Hahay. And it leads me back here, to this spot. I am soo going to cry but i'll save it for later. See Amirah, kahit na nasa hospital room na kami na kami nalang ang naiwan, hindi pa rin kami nag usap. Strike 2. Wrong pa rin. Strike 1 is us being classmates. So this desperately needs a miracle. I'm almost giving up. I hate I hate I hate comparing everything to the past, what am I supposed to do? But what can I do? Shit happened to me. That's why I think this way. Don't blame, it's not my fault, even if there's this cliche saying otherwise, it's the situation's fault. And it's TRUE.
-depression sickness strike 100001- |
